Diagnosis

I don’t know if I’m paranoid or if part of the paranoia is for a good reason.

Have you ever just tried to live right and be respectful to others not willfully use, hurt or abuse anyone.
I try to live my life this way and always remember that no matter how things are going with me, there is someone out there doing worse or better lol. Yea sounds dumb but that’s life.

Why are there people out there always looking to hurt other people and always seem to be doing something sneaky or under handed.. Some may call it passive aggressive. What makes this bad is that the persons I see doing this work with people who are there because they cannot take care of themselves. From so called Ministers to Nurses and Dr.’s

Who are you supposed to trust when they fail you? And you start to even believe that God hates you too?
Sometimes people will hate you no matter what you do. When you are “not doing so good”… you will hear it and when you are doing better some may resent it.. Resent that you are becoming independent and they have a hatred for you that you cannot understand and it confuses you? Like what the F.?!

These are some of the things going through my mind today…


Written sitting in a waiting room…..

“ people don’t like you when things are bad and hate you when things are good”
By: me

Written by Phoebe.. at Friday, June 19, 2009 | 0 Notes Links to this post    
Labels: God, Hatred, Questions

I spent a long time away from this blog. I have been wanting to update or move this blog to my own domain. I am still undecided and until then , I will just blog on...

I have been keeping myself busy, learning about Internet Marketing and also, working hard at keeping myself well. I still have some really horrible mood swings and one reason I need to get a physical checkup.

I have symptoms of ovarian failure it's sometimes called premature menopause. I'm too young for this, but not for my ovaries to fail. Some females are diagnosed with this in their teens.

Hot flashes are a B****.

During the hot flashes and Prozac I am really loving taking part in a 12 week course offered by Jeremy Schoemaker. This is keeping me busy from 6:30 am - 5pm.

Thanks for all the messages for me to start blogging again... I will do that and tell u all what i am currently doing with Life, Health and Love!....

Have a Blessed Day
( picture in post... my character in the world of warcraft game, she's a fighter like me.)

Written by Phoebe.. at Tuesday, June 09, 2009 | 0 Notes Links to this post    
Labels: Website, Work

I thought i would keep this blog going, since it is like a Diary for me and i do not write about personal things on my other websites. I have not blogged here in over a month.
What have i been doing lately?? (if you know me and wondered why I have been aloof)
1. Working trying to establish two websites.
2. Learning more about marketing
3. Trying to listen to the health professionals and sleep more.
4. Using what i have learned in Buddhism to deal with some of the issues i am faced with.
5. Decided that Forensic Science (Computer forensics) is the field for me.

Overall I have been trying to handle the mood swings without aggravating other people.

I do have a low tolerance for noise. I am sensitive to it and really don't know why. I have actually thought about moving out of the city to a smaller town lol. Like off the mainland on the Island. ( see map)

I have also thought about making this a dot com website and take it off of blogger. i am still thinking on this one. Will be back later to blog more about my day.

Written by Phoebe.. at Wednesday, December 10, 2008 | 2 Notes Links to this post    
Labels: Bipolar, Education, Website

I have spoken to many really good bloggers and most of all real genuine people through blogging.
I have read blogs that dealt with everything from abuse too how to make money and be financially independent. The reason I was attracted to Blog Catalog is because people spoke their minds and discussions came about from it all and it taught me allot about other people who I may have never known in real life.
From War veteran's to someone living in Iceland.

For the past year though the discussion board had become a dead zone with the splitting of discussions. Some discussions are set aside away from the main discussion board because some bloggers do not want to be bombarded with political or religous text. Where is it written that when you join a Social Network, you have to love it all and all blogs and speech there? damn logout!!!!

When you do not like or agree with something in your life you may put it on he back burner, but damn if it don't creep up and burn your backside eventually.

A few days ago one blogger posted a new article clip about an incident in India and said how much it upset him, because a child was harmed. This was deleted from the discussion board, because the link is gone. I have seen this done many many times.

Before I headed out today I make a joke about how I would leave the USA if Obama is not voted in as Pres. U know I like to laugh.... Hmmm I came back to see what was going on with the discussion and it was gone, POof! hmm well I know why the other bloggers Post dissapeared, it's because the child in the news article was harmed by a fellow Muslim who burned over 60% of her body...
The fact that he was Muslim is what made the discussion get deleted. Well I have to say that if i didn't believe how fk'd up that was I will say it now that I decided to walk away from BC. the Admin at BC reminds me of how sad the UK has become with ISLAM.

I guess what I am trying to say is that why the hell can Muslims say whatever they feel about non Muslims and we have no rights to even utter a word in defense?

For the Bloggers who have not read the book or watched any Documentaries on this subject. try this from amazon.

"While Europe Slept: How Radical Islam Is Destroying the West from Within"

First of all I am tolerant until you threaten me

The more I started to learn about me. My Africa, My Creole, My French and how I came to be, I also became angry.

will write more about this later.... Peace all I will think about what I write and not blog off the top of my head today.

Written by Phoebe.. at Monday, October 27, 2008 | 0 Notes Links to this post    
Labels: Bloggers, Democracy, Muslims, Peace, Pride